always feel like this

hi bloggy, i wanna tell you something nih hehe well, i have good news and bad news. the good is, hm 4 days again im birthday. and the bad, he was very busy. so, he never come to online anymore. waktu dia online gue malah offline dan sebaliknya-_- but, dia pernah chat beberapa kali sama sepupu gue. he said that he is busy with his homework and he said that he remember my birthday. he just confused apa yg mau dia kasih ke gue.
gue cuma mau dia ngucapin kok itu aja udah cukup. but he never online lately. how can he say happy birthday to me? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa:(
ohiya, i hate when he never online like this. i just afraid. afraid that he will forget me. afraid that he find a good girl over there and im afraid that he not love me anymore. i always feel like this when we are not chatting. sebenernya blm begitu lama sih but feel like a thousand years:p
and the last, im afraid my love for you will go away. i think, sometimes i feel bored to waiting. and, when you not online, i feel lonely and some jerk always come to my life. i hate this situation. i just want you, not others guy.